How is it the weekend Already??- Ok so I wrote this on 9/17 but apparently never hit publish! :)

Ok wow. Talk about crazy busy week. I'm back to work making the rounds around campus like a hard little worker rep. I should've started doing this a week ago but I was one sick momma. Ugh. It sucked. I felt a little cold coming on, and then by Monday I felt terrible. I made a Dr's appointment because I didn't want to get Mr. Gavman sick and I felt like "That person" bc I hate going to the Dr over a little cold. Thankfully I did though, bc when they listened to my lungs there was cackling and the x-ray confirmed it- pneumonia. Boo! Anyways they gave me some pretty strong meds, and I was back at it this week.  Woo Hoo!

Work so far is going pretty good, just CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY busy. I need to take a deep breath and know within the next couple of weeks it's going to settle down a bit. I had 2 lunches this week, 2 worktrips and full campus days. Not to mention all of the fun e-mail follow up I get to do when I get home after I try and spend time with Gavman. You can tell he's getting pissed too. I drop him off at Cindy's and he scowls at me...I pick him up, and he scowls at me again. I don't let him out of the car and bring him inside until he gives me a smile. Lately that's been taking longer, and longer. Cindy thinks he's teething, and also thinks he's developing a bit of a temper. Oh Dear Lord PLEASE do not let him get his mom's temper. Seriously. I don't know what i would do? I'm praying to God he gets Bryan's temperment...laid back, chill, easy going. Not his mom's anxiety, temper or inability to relax. He is a happy baby, everyone comments on his big smiles when we're out and about, but when I pick him up or drop him off at Cindy's it's another story. Gavin, what gives little man?! Could you stop...it's giving me a guilty complex! I know she treats you so good bc everytime I walk in she's holding you, kissing your head, and when I asked if you gave her any issues she hugged you and said Nooo I love him so much! Ha. Looks like you have someone wrapped around your finger?! I'm just happy you're somewhere, where I know your safe, loved and get lots of attention. I really couldn't ask for a better person to watch you. Besides me.

I'm actually dying to see the new Sarah Jessica Parker movie- I don't know how she does it. It was cute because the preview came on and Bryan was like, that would be one you'd really like, we should go see it. So sweet coming from the guy that begged me to go see My Idiot Brother last weeked. I refused so we ended up at Mitchell's Fish Market instead. Ha. Sorry Bry but wasn't feeling it. Anyways, I think I really would love that movie now that I'm a mom, and workkking like a crazy. The problem is I have a tendency to fall asleep during movies so that might be one we PPV once it's out. Although now that we have Gavin a movie seems like a luxury because we can't go with him...Even though I can't wait until he's old enough so we can go see Pixar movies without looking like creeps just Bryan and I.

Since I was sick last week, yesterday was my first day with my new personal trainer, Adam. Wow! Ok I can't walk today. Seriously. I'm supposed to go out for dinner tonight and I planned on wearing heels. All this girl wants to do is throw on sweats, sneakers and hobble around like an old lady.  It was all basically free weights, and core. Really, core?! I don't have one. I've never missed one. And it's so hard. BUT you know what, I told myself I'm going to push it for 12 weeks and see what happens. After that I can continue on with him, do it myself or swear of working out for the rest of my life because he'll make me hate it. Ha. Kidding. We don't want an obese little chunky monkey so even though I was a runner before, I'm making myself become more fit so Im' a good example to Gavs. I'm for the most part in all my clothes again but they do not fit like they used to. If I could drop just a little more weight like 8-10lbs it would be perfect! So here goes nothing. Adam, can kick my booty as much as he wants if it means I'll meet my goal :)

Speaking of Booty. Gavin LOVES sleeping with his in the air. I remember when he was in my belly he would literally always push his butt out. It hurt so bad and looked so rediculous but he still does it! I never noticed it until when we put him in his crib and watch him on the video monitor. He has a little tradition...Flip on his belly, strech his arms out, and the scootch them back in popping his booty in the air. Whatta cute little inchworm he is. When we're holding him against us he does the same thing. Hey You Mrrr Bootyyy.

Also, one by one we're getting our living room back. Mr Gavin has totally outgrown his playmat, and I'm thinking the swing might be next. Grante he's in it now but he can reach up and pull on the little birdsthat spin around his head, so I'm sure that will be put away soon. Kind of sad in a way, but it will nice to not have baby stuff EVERYWHERE. Granted, I'm sure I'm naive in thinking that and it will be quickly replaced with the next new thing he has to have.

Ok so this was random, BUT what better way to use your time when your kid is taking a 2 hour nap?! AFTER sleeping from 9-8 this morning...Must be he just couldn't keep up with his mom and dad's crazy night of shopping and dinner last night. Woo Hoo. Be jealous of our wild Friday Nights. They don't get much better than that! :)

I hate today

Really it's only 10:33 and I think today is one of the roughest days I've had in a long time :( I should probably be working but I'm hoping if I write everything out I'll feel better. Here's to hoping!
So this weekend was great with Bry and Gav. We got to spend a ton of time together as a little family and I enjoyed every minute! I'm feeling better already! :) Thennn last night came. We gave Gav a bottle, rocked him to sleep then laid him in his pack and play that's in the living room bc I didn't feel like putting him in his crib yet. I was just lazy and felt like relaxing still. He normally just falls right asleep without a problem after I put him in it. Not last night. He would freak out every time I tried putting him in his crib. I'd pick him up, and he'd literally fall right back asleep. I'd wait a little and do it again- and he'd cry!! Then I had Bryan do it, and the same thing happened, yet the minute we picked him up he would basically go limp in our arms and fall asleep. It was around midnight so I decided to let him sleep in his pack and play, and stop fighting it. So I slept on my couch and slept terribly.
I then had to get him up at 7, and get him ready for his first day at daycare. My car is at the Subaru dealership so I had to run him to daycare quickly, run back to get Bryan, take Bryan to work, then take our cat Schemsh to the vet. Thankfully our daycare is 3 minutes from our house so that was quick and less painful than I thought it'd be. I held him to hug and kiss him by and when Norma (his daycare lady) came up to him he smiled and reached out for her. Thanks Gav...I should be happy he's happy to be there. But I'm not. I'm mad. I wanted him to miss me more but whatever. I'm just crabby. and I miss hijm. I feel like I'm missing something. We've been basically inseperable for just over 4 months. But anyways, I'm sure it will get easier. I hope!

Then I take Schmesh to the vet. She apparently got bit by a bug, and dug at her ear so much it caused a blood hematoma and ear infection. Not to mention the fact she has a cold. I thought they would drain it, give us meds and we'd be out the door as happy as can be. NOPE. She needs surgery, and has to stay and it will cost us around 530.00. Are you kidding me?! She's like 14 or 15. Putting that much money into a cat is rediculous but what else am I going to do?! Make her be uncomfortable and hate life. My gram told me to put her down but I wuldn't be able to handle that. Plus I felt pressured being there by myself. So surgery it is. This cat better last anther 10 years. Ugh. I just think of all the clothes I could have bought, or money we could have put in Gav's savings account. Oh well. I'll make Bryan pick her up and pay for it so I can pretend it never happened.

Then I come to Panera, ready to get to work so I can sit here unitterupted for a few hours and get all my work out of the way. Well I'm sitting in my car on my phone for awhile because I was talking to Val and then Jason, and I get off the phone raedy to go in and work and I can't find my license or debit card anywhere!! It's not in my wallet. I took these out at the vet appt and put in my pocket so I didn't have to carry the cat carrier and my big bag. So I searched the whole car and couldn't find it. Thankfully I have a credit card with me so I can actually order but seriously?! Ugh. I called the vet and she just called me back and said it was in the driveway. Whew!! So that's a positive.

I also ordered my panera and forgot to order my coffee and I think the girl could tell I was crying so she said here, don't worry about it. Something small but it was really nice and needed today.

Ok now time to get to work. I have 2 lonnnng pages of things I need to do to get ready for work to pick up. I need to relax and focus and I'm sure I"ll feel better when all is said and done. And seriously if this cat doesn't live for another few years, I want a refund. Ugh.

Sleeping Baby and a Glass of Wine

So Gavey is sound asleep so what's this momma doing?! Sitting here drinking a glass of cabernet and enjoying every single second of this peace and quiet :) Gav- your mom REALLY does love hanging out with you alllll day everrrryday but, a time or two to myself when I'm home is sometimes nice. You like to be held and snuggled and this girl lifted a little too much yesterday and I'm feeling it today, so I'm enjoying my little break!

...Our First Father's Day...

Sunday we celebrated our first Father's Day!! Well we actually celebrated the whole weekend...that's how we do things around here. So Friday night we went out for a nice dinner, and took Gaveypants with us, and ate wayyy too much food. Then Saturday we spent the whole day together as a family, I gave Bry all of his father's day gifts which included Bob Marley CD, Mumford and Son CD, and a book all about beer to go with his little keggerator I got him for his bday, we just hung out the 3 of us all day which waws GREAT!! Then we hit up Riv's Sat service since we were goign to be out of town on Sunday, and we came home then our friends surprised us by calling and stopping over. We had a great time with them as always but I accidently drank a wholllle bottle of Skinnygirl Margartias Oops! I guess it was going down a little too easy! Then Sunday we went to Bryan's parents and spent the whole day there with his family. We had a great time, we  it was ncie to go see his parents at their house since we haven't been there in SO long. We ordered Spanky's pizza and breadsticks, and just hung out. When we got home on Sunday night we were so exhausted so we just watched a movie and went to bed. Thankfully Gav was exhausted and slept really great for us- so thank you for that Mr. Man.!!

Bry's Dad gave him this shirt, and he wore it proudly!!

This is the cutest shirt ever...it says "My Pop is the coolest"

Gav wore it with style! Cutey little boy!!



...Mommy Rage...

Gav and I get up and go to the gym every morning so we can for one, get out of the house, and for two get back in shape. Well yesterday I walk into the baby care area (they will watch him for 1 hour in the morning while I'm working out, and 1 hour at night until he's 6 months old...then it goes up to 2 hours- which would be great so I could actually have time to hit up the Steamroom and shower before I come home). Anyways. I walk in yesterday and there are seriously a million kids in there. One little boy Max, ran up to Gavin when I was signing him in, and started rocking his car seat really hard. I put my hand out and nicely said, "no, no we don't touch baby Gavin", so he looked at me and took his little plastic toy animal and threw it at Gavey's little head!! I never wanted to pick up another child and throw them so bad in my life. Thankfully one of the workers came and pulled him away and yelled at him, but seriously?! The funny thing is, when I was working out, the director came and got Max's dad and told him that he needed to go because he wasn't listening. Ha! What now, how about you go home and teach him not to throw things at my son. Ughhhh. But then, I got to thinking what if My Gav is ever the bully?! I hope I'm not one of those mom's who believes there child does no wrong, because that won't help Gav out at all in the long run. It made me really think about discipline and, how we're going to handle different issues as they come up. It was nice to talk to Bry about it because we're both on the same page about everything. I just REALLY hope I'm not an overbearing, overprotective mom, but I think I just might be...Watch out Gav, now is a fair warning. But, trust me that I will work on it, and try my hardest not to be, because I don't want to be "That" mom. 

Gav don't worry, no one will ever hurt your cute little face.

Mom and Dad will protect you. Always. Lucky you! :)

...Mommy Guilt...

I hope this gets easier and I get over it but I'm already feeling sooo guilty about putting Gav in daycare. All the girls I talk to at the gym reassure me that it's ok and that it's good for him, but I hope he doesn't feel abandoned. Yesterday when we were at the gym, they had to come get me bc Gav wouldn't stop crying. They couldn't figure it out, and either could I because he really NEVER cries when he's there or really when he's out in public. He normally just sits there and looks around. I walked in to pick him up and wanted to cry bc he was sticking out his little lip with tears streaming down his face. Ok I'll admit it, I got choked up when I was teling Bryan about it! I'm weak!! Ha! Anyways. he stopped the minute I took him, and he did the same thing the other night when my friend who's been around him a million times was holding him. I just feel like he's afraid I'm going to leave, or that he'll be alone, or something crazy like that?! I've heard of mommy guilt before but never thought I'd be feeling it already. The thing is, I'm still going back to work. I honestly love my job so much and I love being out of the house that I really don't think I could ever be a stay at home mom. A mom that I'm becoming friends with at the gym, is going through the same thing so it makes me feel so much better that I'm not alone. She can admit it's bc she likes money too much, and I have to say I'm also used to a certain lifestyle and going down to just one income would mean changes that I really don't want to make, is that bad?! Gav I hope you don't take it the wrong way. I just want your dad and I to be able to give you a great life with lots of nice things, and I honestly think daycare will be good for you too. You'll meet lots of new friends, learn independance, and get some time away from your crazy mommy :)

...Our Anniversary Weekend...

Finally can I just say I'm sooo pumped for this weekend!! It's our anniversary- the big FIVE years! I can't wait to see what Bry's planned. I know he was originally going to have his parents here on Friday-Sat to watch Gavin, and then have our friend's Nate and Neena take him Sat-Sun but I told him let's just do Sat-Sun and have his parents out. Our friends have 2 little ones themselves, they don't need Mr GavPants keeping them up all night. Plus he has to work a couple hours on Saturday so Friday would have to be low key anyways. So I think the 3 of us will go to our favorite restaurant, either Troppos or Dusty's on Friday night, and then we're spending the night in GR on Sat night. I know he made dinner reservations somewhere, and I have a new dress and can't wait to have a night out on the two in GR! It's been SO long!! Then next year we're going to go away for a week somewhere tropical and fun since this is the big five and we have to stay close by. Which Gav- is totally fine. I would not survive a week away without you, I need a year to prepare myself for anything like that. and hopefully I will be able to do it, even then!! When did I turn into such a clingy mom?!





I love you BryyBry!! Can't wait to see what the next year

has in store for us!!

Ok Time. You can Slow down now.

Happy 2 months to you Gaveypants!! Well granted your birthday was yesterday, but your mom is horrible and thought you were born on the 10th not the 9th!! Oops! Good thing your dad is around, otherwise we might need to pull out the birth certificate every year so we know when to celebrate. Thankfully I did unknowingly take a pic of you on your 2 month bday Mr. Big Boy!!

Two Month Well Baby Appointment:

Today you had your 2 month check up, and you took it like a champ!! Even though your mom was a bit of wreck since you had to get your first round of shots. Boooo!!! Granted, if it means they're going to keep you healthy I'm all for it!! You did SO good, your dad came for part of your appt but then had to go back to work, I'm glad he was there to help give me my moral support :) When they gave you your shots, you screamed the saddest scream in the world, then settled down the minute I picked you up and snuggled. You were even smiling and cooing within a minute of your last shot- I'm so impressed!! You must get your toughness from your dad, and I'm so proud of you!

Right after your Shots My little Champ



Your weight: 12.95 putting you in the 75th percentile
Your height: 24 inches long putting you in the 80th percentile
Your head: I don't remember the exact inches but you were in the 50th

You also hold your head up as good as a 4 month old, and can stand up very well because you're such a strong little baby!! You'll be going for runs with your mom and playing football and soccer with your dad in no time! Although maybe it's better we don't run together. I get mad when your dad can run longer/faster then me because I get competitive, and I might get the same with you?! Ha. Just kidding. Maybe.

We can also start you on some fruits and veggies if you act hungry and want to try them...although I'm a nervous wreck about everything and think we'll hold off on that for a little while :)

SO many Firsts!!

Since the last 6 week posts we've done so many new things like...

• Went camping with our friends and your little girlfriend Quinn over Memorial Weekend in Indiana. It was SO much fun hanging out, having some drinks by the fire, going to the beach, surviving the craziest storm I've ever been in which knocked out the electric for the whollllle day. We even went to the Satek winery which was SO good, and came home with 6 bottles of wine. The Mango wine, wow amazing! I hate fruit wine, but I loooove the Mango! Yum. I actually might pour myself a little glass this afternoon since it's sooo gross and rainy!!

Hanging out our first night

My First Trip Wine Tasting...I wasn't too impressed

Snuggling with Dad at the campsite!

• You went on your first overnight without us, and stayed with your grandparents the first weekend in June so your dad and I could have a night out on the town for my bday. I was a wreck though. How am I ever going to let you go off to school and college? I might have to go with you, I don't like you being away from me for so long!! I was a wreck the night before you went, the hour before you left, and the whole time you were gone. Your dad and I are pathetic and had to watch videos of you and look at pictures while we were out with friends that night. Yikes! You can be embarrased of us, I would be.
• You now go to the Y a few times a week, and hang out with Miss Patty and Grandma Jan and your new buddy Vincent. They all love you since you're the youngest, and in my opinon the cutest!! :) We had to exaggerate on your age a bit since you have to be 2 1/2 months, but that's ok. You;ve got to do what you've got to do! Although I Don't condone lying or exaggerating, so don't do it with me. I always find out. Trust me.
• You now "talk" and smile all the time. I love it! You're seriously the happiest little guy ever in the morning after we feed and change you. You seriously just smile and laugh and talk and I love it! It's my favorite time of the day, just snuggling and smiling :)

Morning Cuddles time







I guess that's it for the BIG firsts!! A BIG first for me, is I started running again!! Woo hoooooo!! I tried at 6 weeks and it hurt SOO freaking bad. Ugh. But when I was at the Y the other day I did a half hour on the eliptical and thought I'd TRY and run again to see how it felt...I was a little sore but I could push through it and ended up running 1.2 miles!! The next day I did just .60 of a mile because well for one I thought Gavman was crying in the baby area (there are windows so I can see him)...I'm a loser and I constantly am peeking in, partly to see how he's doing, and the other part so everyone in there knows I just had a baby and realizes I'm carrying baby weight, not just chub. Ha!

I always thought I was 100 percent ready to be back at work, and now the more I think about it, the more sad I'm getting to think about putting Gav in daycare. I really don't want to at all :( I'm going to miss him so much I could literally cry just thinking about it. He's my little bff and as much as somedays I would give anything to get out of the house in under 20 minutes without changing, feeding, burping, etc a baby, I wouldn't trade it for anything right now. We're looking at Appletree in East Lansing, they even have "apple cams" so I can hop on the computer and log-in and actually see how he's doing. They also teach baby sign, and he's assigned one care giver which makes me feel so much better. The only downside is, it's not in our town and I'd like something a little closer...I have a couple people who are e-mailing their friends in our town to get a few recommendations for me that I'll also look in to. As much as I hate the thought of putting him in daycare, I have to be honest and say I'm not the stay at home mom type. I think I'll be a better wife AND mom if I can get out of the house, do my job, feel productive, close some business, make money, and talk to people all day :)

Although it will be hard to leave this cute little snuggly monkey



Ok I think this is one lonnnnnng update! Hopefully I don't go so long in between next time :) I say that but I probably will. At this rate you will have 1 page in your baby book when I print this out for your bday...whichever day it is! Ha. Love you GavGav.