The Best Feeling Ever Is...

Coming home and seeing my hubsters and my Gav after 4 days!! Gavin starting squealing and laughing and kicking the minute he saw me. Seriously it make me smile just thinking about it. He wouldn't let go of me and just stared and smiled. It melted my heart and I'm sitting here smiling just thinking about it! It really was the best feeling ever. Maybe I should go away on trips more often?! Ha. Kidding. Although I should admit I've spent the last hour googling all inclusive resorts in the Carribean! We're going somewhere fun next May or June, but we can't figure out where??  I just need something to help get me through this next selling season, and I think a va-ca is just the thing! Plus it gets me that much more motivation to get my booty to the gym. Although the thought of leaving Gav without his mom AND his dad for a whole week sounds so terrible and sad. But I need to get used to it since I have to go 2 times a year to sales meetings anyways. Our next one in January is in San Diego and I already can't wait! I think I just might have to go a day or two early or stay late. I've never been there before, although I know the time difference will suck.

My meeting went really well. I missed my boys terribly, but it was good to hang out with people I only see a couple times of year. I ate great food, drank too many drinks, and learned all that there is to know about textbooks, mylabs, and selling. Woo Hoo. Talk about fun times?! :)

I also FINALLY got my hair cut today. Wow talk about long over due. I left Gav with our friend Neena so I could just go and relax. This was the first time he was with anyone other than his grandparents without us and he did great!! He slept there, and smiled and had the time of his life. Either that or Neen is just telling me this but, he seemed like a happy little bear cub when I went to pick him up. He then proceeded to scream the whole way home. Thanks a lot Gav Gav. I broke down and got 3 cute little feather extensions in my hair...Although they blend in so well I'm not sure if it's even noticable. Maybe it will be when I wash my hair and make it look normal. Right now it's allll curly. My girl always curls it like crazy before I leave, and never lets me see it until she's done. I want it just straight, but she likes to make me "look like one hot momma" those are her words! Ha! I'm not too sure what I think of these but for now it works. Maybe I'll take a pic and put it up later. Speaking of which, I've been meaning to add pics to my last few posts...I should do that. Sometime.

Then my last big news is- Gavey Gav has God parents now! Is that what you call it?! I mean if something happens to Bryan and I both, he has a wonderful family that will take him in and raise him. Wow what a relief. I mean heaven forbid anything happen to us and I pray to God nothing does, but it's a relief knowing if for some crazy terrible reason something does happen to us, Gavin will be taken care of. I hope our families understand, but we spent a lot of time thinking, and praying about where we'd want him to go. The people who are going to take care of him we have so much respect for and we love so much. They have kids that Gavin already spends so much time with, and they seem like family to us as cheesy as that sounds. Gavin you are so very loved, by so many people. If something did happen to us, which I hope like I said it never does, know that your dad and I want you to be raised by two of the best people we know because we know you'll be in good hands. Your future is SO important to us, and I've been stressing about this for so long, I'm glad we came to a desicion and they agreed. It's so creepy even writing this (ha maybe I'm just morbid?! Yikes!) but, I just want you to know that this was a big deal to try and figure out and we have such peace about this. I love you Gavey Gav and you're so lucky to have SO many people who love you so much too!! Whatta special little booga boogs you are!!

I guess in other Gav news...what else have you been doing that's new?! You love grabbing your feet, inching all over the place!! You can no longer just hang out on your play mat because you end up across the floor with rug burn on your face (oops!!), You love pulling my hair out of my head, squealing, trying to put your feet in your mouth, and sitting on your booty and trying to reach everything in front of you. You can also stand with me hardly holding you and sit up with my hand sitting on your back. Strong little boy!! We go next week for your 4 month appt and I can't wait to see how much you weigh, Mr I wear 9 month sleepers to bed at night :( Stop growing, I have so many more outfits for you to wear!! Well I guess keep growing bc I don't want you to be a little person your whole life.

Ok that's it for now. Time to stop being anti-social and hang out with the fam. SOOO good to be home and just chilling! Love it!

Crazy how life changes in year!

SO crazy how quickly things change!! Literally one year ago today I was freaking out having panic attacks because I just found out I was pregnant and was totally not expecting it. I just returned home from my sales meeting in Chicago, and woke up the next day remembering that a few of my friends thought I was pregnant and that I should take a test. I took one, walked away not really thinking anything of it, and came back to find a positive sign!! So I took 2 more and sure enough they all came back preggo! We went to church that morning and I called Laura and texted Val that I was pregnant. I felt so sick and so freaked out. The thought of a living thing growing inside of me kind of grossed me out for some reason (No offence Gav!). Bry and I went to Riv and had to walk out in the middle of the service because I was crying so hard. This was not planned, I was not for my life to change, and the thought of a baby made me SO nervous. I mean I never changed a diaper or even held a baby before. Whenever my friends would have babies and want me to hold it, talk to it, make a big deal over it, I never would. I just thought it was weird and was not interested...

Now fast forward a year. I'm currently sitting 10000's of feet in the air on my Delta flight to Ft. Lauderdale/Hollywoord FL. My son is almost 4 months old (Well in 9 days, or 10. Ugh I forgot the date of his bday again. I suck.) anyways. This morning was the roughtest morning of my life. Bryan's parent's came out yesterday and his mom is staying through Thursday which is when I'll get home. I had to say bye to Gavin and Bry and ugh. I feel like my heart is left in Michigan :( I am so in love with those boys that it hurts to leave. I know how pathetic I sound, but I never imagined it being this hard. To make things a little worse, I put Gav in the nursery yesterday, than his parents came out and took care of him while Bry and I did some yard work then just the two of us went out for a nice dinner and drinks. When I came home Gavin was exhausted so Bry gave him a bottle and I held him until he fell asleep. So I literally feel like I didn't spend any time with him yesterday. I feel like I abandoned him and it's the worst feeling ever. I guess the bright side is, it will be the best day ever on Thursday when I get home and get to see my boys again!! And, I have to say the thought of being able to come and go, and go out at night to the nicest dinners, and have lots of drinks and fun without any worries in the world, doesn't sound all THAT bad either. I'm such a mom already. I can't wait to get down there and buy lots of stuff for Gav. What is wrong with me?! It's not like he'll know or care where it's from. But I guess I do and that's all that matters :) I guess I just wish they were going with me. That would make it SO much better. I could have the best of both worlds! What am I going to do next year when Bryan and I leave for a week to go on va-ca?! Maybe I'll sneak Gav in my luggage so he can go to?! Although then our friends that we're going with probably will leave us becacuse isn't the point to get a break from the babes?! Anyways I'm rambling but at least it's killing some time on this flight :)

In other news. Why do I always end up next to weirdos when I fly?! Or maybe it's just me. I'm sitting next to two large black ladies, and the one is talking SO loud now stop, and the other (the one I'm next to) keeps sneezing and rubbing and itching her nose. I mean like won't stop. As in she probably rubs her nose every other minute. Why is it annoying me so much. I want to switch seats.

Oh and my last bit of news is I'm under 10 pounds from my pre-preg weight! WOO HOOO! My husband is amazing and took me shoppign like 3 days last week so I could get new clothes. I stocked up and probably spent way too much but you know what, I deserve it after carrying a child for 9 months, gaining 54 pounds, and working my booty off trying to lose it. Gavin you seriously owe me big time.

Alright, hitting turbulance and I'm running out of things to say. Hopefully I'll be able to update on Thursday that I had the best week ever, and that I'm back home with my Brybear and Gavva Gavs!!