Fridayyy!!

Well, I survived the week! After Monday, I wasn't so sure?! The sad thing is I spent so much time complaining about me I didn't even write anything about Gaveybear. So Gav- this one is for you!

• You had your 4 month check up last week, and you my friend are one tall boy! You're 26 inches long putting you in the 95th percentile, and 16lbs 1 oz making you in the 75th percentile with your weight. The whole time I was pregnant my OB would comment on how tall you were, and that it must be because your daddy is so tall. Which to me is funny b/c 1- how could they really tell your height. I mean I guess they can and they were right one. and 2. Your dad isn't that tall. Shhh! Don't tell him. I think he felt cool when the Dr. told him that.


• You are no longer able to be left alone for a few seconds when I'm trying to make coffee and check e-mails in the morning. You arch your back and try to scootch out of your swing and your bouncy. Thankfully the toy makers realize this and that's what those little straps are created for. You hate being buckled in, but come on Gav it's either that or you're going to fall out and hurt your cute little self. BUT you do LOVE your baby Einstein! You will stand and bounce in it for such a long time. Which is nice because the music isn't obnoxious so you just bounce, laugh and concentrate your day away. Thank you Mr,. Einstein for this creation!


• You now not only roll from your front to back which you mastered weeks ago, but you rolled from back to front last night like it was a piece of cake! So no more waking us up because you flipped onto your back in the night, and need us to flip you back over k?! Deal?? Ha. For some reason I don't think it will be. Thankfully we just need to roll you back over and then you're out.
• You're starting to go through a daddy phase, which may or may not be making me a little sad. I was telling Grandma Jan this at the gym, and she gave your dad the best compliment! She said she always is telling people what a great daddy he is. That she can tell how much he loves you and how proud he is of you in the few times he's seen your dad and you together. So sweet! What's not so sweet is when your dad was gone helping Nate and Neena tile their floors, you would wake up in the middle of the night (which is what happens when he doesn't get home until 1- bryan!! Ha!). Anyways, I would try and cuddle you and you'd cry, then your dad would take you and you'd be fine. Stinker pants. Speaking of your girlfriend's parents, you decided to steal her paci and you have no shame with all the pink and hearts. I'll let this slide this time, but if you ever grab for dolls, barbies, or want to be a dancer I won't allow it.

• You also spent the night at papa and gram's this week and did such a great job! You slept through the night even though you were in a new place, were full of smiles, and got to see the gold fish in papa's pond and watch the birds in the feeders. You're so alert and you don't miss a thing. You're now hanging out with them at our house so mom can get work done, and so me and your dad can have a night out tonight without taking bottles, formula, diapers and wipeys with us. Woo hoo!
• You went to daycare this week for the first time, and I think (HOPE!) You loved it. It wasn't as hard as I thoguht it would be for me since I'vebeen so busy, but by the end of the day I can't get there fast enough. You smiled at everyone when you left so that means you like it right? Please say yes. You're also SO cuddly when I pick you up. You come home and snuggle with me and then take a little nap. They must tire you out ha Gavey Gav? So tired ater your first day!!

• I love you so much Gavin. I truly enjoy everything about you, and I'm so proud to be your mom handsome baby boo.

• PS this was MUCH more positive than my last one. Let's disregard that crappppy day. I'm sure Schmesh would like to forget about it just as much as me. The poor thing used to pride herself on her looks and now she's a hot mess.

I hate today

Really it's only 10:33 and I think today is one of the roughest days I've had in a long time :( I should probably be working but I'm hoping if I write everything out I'll feel better. Here's to hoping!
So this weekend was great with Bry and Gav. We got to spend a ton of time together as a little family and I enjoyed every minute! I'm feeling better already! :) Thennn last night came. We gave Gav a bottle, rocked him to sleep then laid him in his pack and play that's in the living room bc I didn't feel like putting him in his crib yet. I was just lazy and felt like relaxing still. He normally just falls right asleep without a problem after I put him in it. Not last night. He would freak out every time I tried putting him in his crib. I'd pick him up, and he'd literally fall right back asleep. I'd wait a little and do it again- and he'd cry!! Then I had Bryan do it, and the same thing happened, yet the minute we picked him up he would basically go limp in our arms and fall asleep. It was around midnight so I decided to let him sleep in his pack and play, and stop fighting it. So I slept on my couch and slept terribly.
I then had to get him up at 7, and get him ready for his first day at daycare. My car is at the Subaru dealership so I had to run him to daycare quickly, run back to get Bryan, take Bryan to work, then take our cat Schemsh to the vet. Thankfully our daycare is 3 minutes from our house so that was quick and less painful than I thought it'd be. I held him to hug and kiss him by and when Norma (his daycare lady) came up to him he smiled and reached out for her. Thanks Gav...I should be happy he's happy to be there. But I'm not. I'm mad. I wanted him to miss me more but whatever. I'm just crabby. and I miss hijm. I feel like I'm missing something. We've been basically inseperable for just over 4 months. But anyways, I'm sure it will get easier. I hope!

Then I take Schmesh to the vet. She apparently got bit by a bug, and dug at her ear so much it caused a blood hematoma and ear infection. Not to mention the fact she has a cold. I thought they would drain it, give us meds and we'd be out the door as happy as can be. NOPE. She needs surgery, and has to stay and it will cost us around 530.00. Are you kidding me?! She's like 14 or 15. Putting that much money into a cat is rediculous but what else am I going to do?! Make her be uncomfortable and hate life. My gram told me to put her down but I wuldn't be able to handle that. Plus I felt pressured being there by myself. So surgery it is. This cat better last anther 10 years. Ugh. I just think of all the clothes I could have bought, or money we could have put in Gav's savings account. Oh well. I'll make Bryan pick her up and pay for it so I can pretend it never happened.

Then I come to Panera, ready to get to work so I can sit here unitterupted for a few hours and get all my work out of the way. Well I'm sitting in my car on my phone for awhile because I was talking to Val and then Jason, and I get off the phone raedy to go in and work and I can't find my license or debit card anywhere!! It's not in my wallet. I took these out at the vet appt and put in my pocket so I didn't have to carry the cat carrier and my big bag. So I searched the whole car and couldn't find it. Thankfully I have a credit card with me so I can actually order but seriously?! Ugh. I called the vet and she just called me back and said it was in the driveway. Whew!! So that's a positive.

I also ordered my panera and forgot to order my coffee and I think the girl could tell I was crying so she said here, don't worry about it. Something small but it was really nice and needed today.

Ok now time to get to work. I have 2 lonnnng pages of things I need to do to get ready for work to pick up. I need to relax and focus and I'm sure I"ll feel better when all is said and done. And seriously if this cat doesn't live for another few years, I want a refund. Ugh.

The Best Feeling Ever Is...

Coming home and seeing my hubsters and my Gav after 4 days!! Gavin starting squealing and laughing and kicking the minute he saw me. Seriously it make me smile just thinking about it. He wouldn't let go of me and just stared and smiled. It melted my heart and I'm sitting here smiling just thinking about it! It really was the best feeling ever. Maybe I should go away on trips more often?! Ha. Kidding. Although I should admit I've spent the last hour googling all inclusive resorts in the Carribean! We're going somewhere fun next May or June, but we can't figure out where??  I just need something to help get me through this next selling season, and I think a va-ca is just the thing! Plus it gets me that much more motivation to get my booty to the gym. Although the thought of leaving Gav without his mom AND his dad for a whole week sounds so terrible and sad. But I need to get used to it since I have to go 2 times a year to sales meetings anyways. Our next one in January is in San Diego and I already can't wait! I think I just might have to go a day or two early or stay late. I've never been there before, although I know the time difference will suck.

My meeting went really well. I missed my boys terribly, but it was good to hang out with people I only see a couple times of year. I ate great food, drank too many drinks, and learned all that there is to know about textbooks, mylabs, and selling. Woo Hoo. Talk about fun times?! :)

I also FINALLY got my hair cut today. Wow talk about long over due. I left Gav with our friend Neena so I could just go and relax. This was the first time he was with anyone other than his grandparents without us and he did great!! He slept there, and smiled and had the time of his life. Either that or Neen is just telling me this but, he seemed like a happy little bear cub when I went to pick him up. He then proceeded to scream the whole way home. Thanks a lot Gav Gav. I broke down and got 3 cute little feather extensions in my hair...Although they blend in so well I'm not sure if it's even noticable. Maybe it will be when I wash my hair and make it look normal. Right now it's allll curly. My girl always curls it like crazy before I leave, and never lets me see it until she's done. I want it just straight, but she likes to make me "look like one hot momma" those are her words! Ha! I'm not too sure what I think of these but for now it works. Maybe I'll take a pic and put it up later. Speaking of which, I've been meaning to add pics to my last few posts...I should do that. Sometime.

Then my last big news is- Gavey Gav has God parents now! Is that what you call it?! I mean if something happens to Bryan and I both, he has a wonderful family that will take him in and raise him. Wow what a relief. I mean heaven forbid anything happen to us and I pray to God nothing does, but it's a relief knowing if for some crazy terrible reason something does happen to us, Gavin will be taken care of. I hope our families understand, but we spent a lot of time thinking, and praying about where we'd want him to go. The people who are going to take care of him we have so much respect for and we love so much. They have kids that Gavin already spends so much time with, and they seem like family to us as cheesy as that sounds. Gavin you are so very loved, by so many people. If something did happen to us, which I hope like I said it never does, know that your dad and I want you to be raised by two of the best people we know because we know you'll be in good hands. Your future is SO important to us, and I've been stressing about this for so long, I'm glad we came to a desicion and they agreed. It's so creepy even writing this (ha maybe I'm just morbid?! Yikes!) but, I just want you to know that this was a big deal to try and figure out and we have such peace about this. I love you Gavey Gav and you're so lucky to have SO many people who love you so much too!! Whatta special little booga boogs you are!!

I guess in other Gav news...what else have you been doing that's new?! You love grabbing your feet, inching all over the place!! You can no longer just hang out on your play mat because you end up across the floor with rug burn on your face (oops!!), You love pulling my hair out of my head, squealing, trying to put your feet in your mouth, and sitting on your booty and trying to reach everything in front of you. You can also stand with me hardly holding you and sit up with my hand sitting on your back. Strong little boy!! We go next week for your 4 month appt and I can't wait to see how much you weigh, Mr I wear 9 month sleepers to bed at night :( Stop growing, I have so many more outfits for you to wear!! Well I guess keep growing bc I don't want you to be a little person your whole life.

Ok that's it for now. Time to stop being anti-social and hang out with the fam. SOOO good to be home and just chilling! Love it!

Crazy how life changes in year!

SO crazy how quickly things change!! Literally one year ago today I was freaking out having panic attacks because I just found out I was pregnant and was totally not expecting it. I just returned home from my sales meeting in Chicago, and woke up the next day remembering that a few of my friends thought I was pregnant and that I should take a test. I took one, walked away not really thinking anything of it, and came back to find a positive sign!! So I took 2 more and sure enough they all came back preggo! We went to church that morning and I called Laura and texted Val that I was pregnant. I felt so sick and so freaked out. The thought of a living thing growing inside of me kind of grossed me out for some reason (No offence Gav!). Bry and I went to Riv and had to walk out in the middle of the service because I was crying so hard. This was not planned, I was not for my life to change, and the thought of a baby made me SO nervous. I mean I never changed a diaper or even held a baby before. Whenever my friends would have babies and want me to hold it, talk to it, make a big deal over it, I never would. I just thought it was weird and was not interested...

Now fast forward a year. I'm currently sitting 10000's of feet in the air on my Delta flight to Ft. Lauderdale/Hollywoord FL. My son is almost 4 months old (Well in 9 days, or 10. Ugh I forgot the date of his bday again. I suck.) anyways. This morning was the roughtest morning of my life. Bryan's parent's came out yesterday and his mom is staying through Thursday which is when I'll get home. I had to say bye to Gavin and Bry and ugh. I feel like my heart is left in Michigan :( I am so in love with those boys that it hurts to leave. I know how pathetic I sound, but I never imagined it being this hard. To make things a little worse, I put Gav in the nursery yesterday, than his parents came out and took care of him while Bry and I did some yard work then just the two of us went out for a nice dinner and drinks. When I came home Gavin was exhausted so Bry gave him a bottle and I held him until he fell asleep. So I literally feel like I didn't spend any time with him yesterday. I feel like I abandoned him and it's the worst feeling ever. I guess the bright side is, it will be the best day ever on Thursday when I get home and get to see my boys again!! And, I have to say the thought of being able to come and go, and go out at night to the nicest dinners, and have lots of drinks and fun without any worries in the world, doesn't sound all THAT bad either. I'm such a mom already. I can't wait to get down there and buy lots of stuff for Gav. What is wrong with me?! It's not like he'll know or care where it's from. But I guess I do and that's all that matters :) I guess I just wish they were going with me. That would make it SO much better. I could have the best of both worlds! What am I going to do next year when Bryan and I leave for a week to go on va-ca?! Maybe I'll sneak Gav in my luggage so he can go to?! Although then our friends that we're going with probably will leave us becacuse isn't the point to get a break from the babes?! Anyways I'm rambling but at least it's killing some time on this flight :)

In other news. Why do I always end up next to weirdos when I fly?! Or maybe it's just me. I'm sitting next to two large black ladies, and the one is talking SO loud now stop, and the other (the one I'm next to) keeps sneezing and rubbing and itching her nose. I mean like won't stop. As in she probably rubs her nose every other minute. Why is it annoying me so much. I want to switch seats.

Oh and my last bit of news is I'm under 10 pounds from my pre-preg weight! WOO HOOO! My husband is amazing and took me shoppign like 3 days last week so I could get new clothes. I stocked up and probably spent way too much but you know what, I deserve it after carrying a child for 9 months, gaining 54 pounds, and working my booty off trying to lose it. Gavin you seriously owe me big time.

Alright, hitting turbulance and I'm running out of things to say. Hopefully I'll be able to update on Thursday that I had the best week ever, and that I'm back home with my Brybear and Gavva Gavs!!